dear Z,

..
mama and papa never prayed for you.
to have you.

because...

one.
we are h̶e̶a̶t̶h̶e̶n̶s̶ nonbelievers.

two.
we only wanted to adopt.
one less lonely orphan in the world then.

three.
the planet is burning.
i personally think bringing a child into this world
is soplistic and cruel.

and four...
well...
the idea of having a human being pass through my vagina
was utterly terrifying. haha

yet here you are.
and poof!
your papa is no longer my favourite human in the world.

we never prayed nor wished for you...
but i have loved you since i knew you existed,

even more so when i almost lost you...
twice.

i have loved you since i first heard your heartbeat,

and even more the first time i laid my eyes on you...

i think i just keep on loving you.
i just couldn't stop loving you
more than i've ever loved you before.

yes, we neither prayed nor wished for you...

but you're the best thing that has ever happened
to papa and me.

i love you always, our happy little accident.
i hope you always know.

..